Friday, May 23, 2008

Alzheimer's Diary: Wish List

I wish I'd stop holding on to every little
piece of us.
I wish I'd stop making him a Saint.
I wish I'd gone on the doctor's trip to Vietnam with him.

I wish his Silences wouldn't have bothered me.

Once, before Aphasia ruined his speech,
he said he was glad for all of it,
that I kept him on his toes,
really.

I wish Alzheimer's would just go away.

But then he wouldn't be here
and he's still him,
really.

Last Wish List for awhile...

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2 Comments:

Blogger Esther's Writing Works said...

On silence: Here's what Charles Simic says in his lovely little book, Dime-Store Alchemy: The Art of Joseph Cornell, New York Review of Books, 1992

"Silence is that vast, cosmic church [shul?]in which we always stand alone. Silence is the only language God speaks."
(p.57)

Take it or leave it, I guess.

1:40 PM  
Blogger rilera said...

Thank you for expressing what I'm sure all of us who have LOs with Alz think. I'd give anything to have Mom back as her old self too.

11:28 AM  

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